The sun shining brightly warms my soul. The cool breeze across my cheeks feels really nice today.
I feel this air of confidence & the happy-ness showing in my stroll down Salem Avenue. The trees in the park rustling almost in tune with my stride.
Everything seems so clear & brightly beautiful for some reason.
Nothing is going to bother me today!
I reach my street & turn the corner when Rosie comes running up to me with her group of little friends. Nope, these pain-in-the-butt teenies are not going to annoy me today!
“Pablo has a
g-i-r-l-f-r-i-e-n-d!” shouts Rosie in a sing-song tone.
“Buzz off, Rosie” I reply, trying to get rid of her, because she is – annoying! She is a short girl with a fast stride, bouncing long blond hair that is always pulled up into single ponytail. She is usually leading a group of little girls that do whatever she wants them to do. When they are not around, you can see her yanking her little brother – Peter – around by the arm.
She’s OK though, always happy and cheery. Hopping and skipping and just being a little girl.
“Pablo has a g-i-r-l-f-r-i-e-n-d!” again she shouts.
This time her friends chime in & they all do their sing-song thing in unison.
“Pablo has a g-i-r-l-f-r-i-e-n-d!”
“Pablo has a g-i-r-l-f-r-i-e-n-d!”
Intent on having nothing annoy me today, I chase them all away. But Rosie keeps coming back.
Rosie follows close behind me, as I walk toward the house.
“What do you want Rosie?” I ask her, getting annoyed.
“Are you gonna kiss her?” She replies with a dumb giggle & coyly covers her mouth as if she just said something she knows she shouldn’t have.
“I don’t know who you are talking about.”
“you really don’t know?” she asks surprised.
“No I don’t Rosie. Stop being such a spaz, Just tell me!”
She laughs & start her sing-song again. “Pablo doesn’t k-n-o-o-o-o-o-w! Pablo doesn’t k-n-o-o-o-o-o-o-w!”
“You are starting to piss me off Rosie, Just tell me already!”
“Well, Kim said that Diana heard Marie say that she had overheard Karen & her best friend talking…”
“R-o-s-i-e-e-e-e! get to the point!”
“She said that she wishes Pablo would ask her out!” Rosie yells.
“What? Karen who? when?” Now she’s got my attention! I’ve never had a girl interested in me – well besides Lourdes on the bus – but she was really aggravating!
“Karen, the Karen? The one that lives on this street? That Karen?”
“Yeah, that Karen! She is so pretty and sexy. I bet you want to kiss her…”
At that point I didn’t hear another word that Rosie was saying. I have never had a girlfriend, let alone kissed a girl! I walk into the house, ran right upstairs to my room & slam the door shut in excitement.
“Me and Karen!” I shouted as I leaped onto the bed. Wow that would be groovy, man. Karen has got to be the most hip girl in town. She is tall, long slender legs & always wearing those nice-fittin’ flares and low-cut blouses. She is so fine! with that Brick House figure. Her hair is black and shining, worn long and straight. She keeps her bangs clearly off her eyebrows so you can see her blue eyes. She always sits outside, her curves leaning on her dad’s car, painting or filling her nails.
There are no other girls her age in our group so she usually sits there alone on her dad’s car or hangs out with the guys. I usually see her in her skin-tight softball outfit waiting for her dad to take her to the school grounds. She is younger than me, but she is more developed than any girl in school and carries herself like a high-school girl! She is so far-out!
All the guys just stops & stare at her. A few dare come around the block to check her out. Their eyes fixated on Karen as she strolls down the street. Same in the halls at school.
I can just hear it now…
“Hi boys, what’s the matter cat’s got your tongue?” She has that kind of flirtatious way that gets all the boys tongue-tied when she is around.
“Wow, Karen & me – together! I can just see the guys in school high-fiving me.”
The rest of the day goes by with my head in the clouds. I can’t hold it back, who can I share this with?
Danny? no, he will only make fun of me & beat me up for hesitating for so long. So I can’t tell him.
My sisters? Well they are silly girls & will get all gushy & giggly. They will just have a million questions & I just don’t know how to answer.
“Pablo! Girls! Come down & set the table…” Mom’s calling for us breaks my train of thought. My sisters head down immediately, but I come down a few minutes behind.
“Pablo, set the spoons & forks… Nancy has the plates on the table already.”
“Patty get the napkins…”
Mom continues with instructions, but her voice fades away in the background. It starts to sound like “Blah, Blah, Blah!” as my head starts wandering off again and back onto the idea of dating Karen.
Could this be real? Karen is too pretty… This can’t be true! How will I know for sure? I can’t ask her out & take the chance that she may says no! Or worse – make a fool of me in front of the guys. How will I know for sure?
“I know! I’ll tell Leo!” I shouted — out loud apparently.
“Tell Leo what?” Nancy replies.
“Nothing! never mind!”
I set the spoons & forks on the table quickly & run out the front door. Leo is usually out after all of us go home for dinner, so he has to be here! I run to the corner and sure enough, Leo is riding his bike in the park across the street.
“Leo! Leo!” I shout out to him “Come here I need to talk with you!” I shared with Leo what Rosie told me.
“Karen? The Karen? She is so hot!” Leo adds with a smile on his face.
Leo gets a smile on his face and starts to daydream – maybe wishing it was him, so I cut him off. “Leo, you gotta find out for me. You’re friends with her best friend – go ask her.”
He rides off, standing up off the seat & trying to pop wheelies in that crazy way that Leo likes to do. Never really getting the front wheel more than a few inches off the ground, but nonetheless never stopping….
After dinner we all head outside again. Leo is riding his bike in a circle and all the other kids are playing kickball.
“Leo, what did you find out?” I ask him
“It’s true. She is waiting for you to ask her out!”
“What!?!? She’s gotta be wrong! Did she say those words?”
“Well, she was not home but her older sister confirmed it.”
“Bullshit!”
“It’s true! Her older sister is my sister’s best friend – she wouldn’t lie to me”
So it is true! At that moment the world seemed to come to a stop. The kids playing kickball drop the ball & it just rolls down the street – in what felt like slow motion – toward Karen’s house. My eyes follow the ball and then to my surprise… Karen comes outside.
Her eyes start scanning everyone outside, as if she is looking for someone specifically. My eyes caught hers & she waves to me.
“Go ask her out” Leo elbows me & urges me on.
But a chill runs down my spine. She is so beautiful! My brow is sweaty and my palms are clammy. This moment can’t be happening. what if…
“This is your only chance! go ask her out!” This time Leo insisted.
I walk across the street with the pretense of getting the ball for the kids, but really with the ulterior motive of getting closer to Karen. I didn’t notice anything or anyone else on the street except Karen. I’m staring at her curves leaning onto her father’s car & she gives me that flirtatious look, as if asking “what are you doing over there with that ball? Come here!”
I toss the ball over my shoulder, hoping it goes in the direction of the kids. I walk up to her & lean on the other car opposite to her.
“Hey Karen. You look nice today.”
“You think so?” she asks – knowing she does, but egging an acknowledgement.
So I take the hint & reply, “Of course you do! You’re the prettiest girl on the block!”
She giggles and smiles coyly. Putting her head down, she blushes a little, runs her hand through her hair and shifts her body along the door of the car.
Again the hint is received & I feel comfortable to continue. We continue talking & I reach out to hold her hands. The moment is magical!
We chatted for what felt like an eternity. Me standing in front of her holding her warm hands. The only interruption came from the kids who kicked the ball in our direction several times. Then they start with a sing-song rhyme:
“Pablo & Karen sitting in a tree, K-i-s-s-i-n-g”
I blush & Karen drops her gaze shyly. “Karen, I like you & I know you want me to ask you out. Would you like to go out with me?”
Holy shit! I can’t believe I really asked her! “What if she says no – how can I walk away?” My mind just keeps rattling out all these questions of doubt & I put my head down as I already knew what her answer was going to be. I even let go of her hands & stand up straight. My mind keeps talking “Alright just give it to me! Let me have it in front of all my friends! Come on – you evil woman – just do it!! Turn me down!”
“Sure, I’ll go out with you.” Karen replies softly!
“You will?” I question in shock! almost as if expecting a catch…
“Sure! I like you too.” she replied with a sincere smile.
Woo-hoo!! The fireworks are blasting in space! And the marching band is so loud in my head.
“Good, so we’re boyfriend & girlfriend?” I ask – just to confirm it.
“Sure you silly…” she answers giggling. She tosses her hair to the side, leans in and gives me a small peck on the lips. Shocked, I lean back and touch my lips in disbelief. She laughs, winks at me & then runs back into her house. “Goodnight! see you tomorrow….”
Boo-yah! I have my first girlfriend – and my first kiss! I turn to look at Leo & he signals as if to ask what happened.
“She said yes!”
Again the marching band is playing loudly in my head! Drums, symbols, trumpets blaring a triumphal march… I catch the fact that I floated away in a daydream & notice Leo riding circles around me in excitement. He is doing his crazy wheel-popping routine. Yanking the handlebars up in excitement & plopping back down. One of these days he will get it – but for now lets just enjoy the moment…
The rest of the night we played while the sky glistened with an amazingly bright moon. Karen sat in her parent’s bedroom window pretending to be reading a book – but looking out at us playing. She would wave & I would wave back to my Rapunzel in her perch.
Our shadow dance only interrupted when I see her put a phone on her ear. Who can she be talking to? “Ahh, she must be happily sharing this news with her friends” I innocently pretend.
Leo & I continue playing in between my glances up at her window. After a few minutes, I glance over & this time she seems to be dancing of joy! The lights go out so I guess its time for bed.
“Goodnight my princess…” I whisper in her direction and wave to the darkened, empty window.
That night I slept peacefully. Dreaming of my princess on the balcony. I, her prince, will come over the horizon and ask her to marry me. We would ride off through the mist on my white horse. It was a beautiful & dreamy night.
Next day I woke up filled with joy like never before, even though the day was overcast. Can’t wait to see Karen & hear what she told her friends about us. I go downstairs after doing my chores & after lunch, I head out. Since it looked like rain, Leo is the only one out there. Riding his bike in continuous long loops as if he is anxiously waiting for something. He sees me & goes into his crazy wheel-popping circles while heading in my direction.
“Tell me! How do you feel now that you have a girlfriend?”
I thought about it and didn’t really know how to answer. We talked for a long while though.
A guy I’ve never seen steps up toward us and interrupts our conversation.
“Hey, what It Is, man!” He nods his head at Leo in a form of greeting. Leo nods back. This dude does a visual scan of the area as if he’s looking for something.
“What’s up?” Leo asks this guy. Noticing that he is distracted. “What are you doing in this neighborhood?”
“Nothing. Just came to see my aunt who lives around the corner.”
“4-sho!” Leo replied & thought nothing of it.
We returned to our conversation, but this interchange felt weird to me. Something seemed off about this chump. He seems much older than Leo to be in the same grade. I bet you he must have failed the 8th grade several times. He is very tall with a well-built frame. Almost 6 feet tall with big black bushy, curly hair. He seems to be dressed too nicely, showing off his muscles. I even smell cologne and noticed his thick mustache! What’s up with that?
He hangs around for a bit, not saying much just looking here & there.
Leo tries to engage him,”How’s class going?” but the guy seems lost in his scan of the area. At that moment I see Karen come outside.
He notices her too….
“Catch you later, Leo…” The chump says goodbye not even answering Leo’s question. Something is off here…
He quickly walks away. Heads towards the park and sits on a park bench. I walk over to meet up with Karen & try to forget this chump.
Karen & I both lean onto the same cars as last night. I start a conversation, trying to pickup where we left off, but Karen seemed to be somewhere else.
“Karen, did you hear me?”
She reaches out, holds my hand & gives me a bleak kiss on the cheek. Her hands are soft but frigid as if she was holding ice. Her eyes glistening steely blue in the dim sunlight. She looks back at me – but with a glance I’ve never seen on anyone’s eyes before. She smell so nice. Her hair looks shinier & more puffed up than usual – as if she was going out somewhere. We talk for a bit but something feels off in the conversation.
She pauses & then, like in a scene from a B-movie, drops a line from a cheesy script: “I think we need to see other people…”
“Damn, its only been a few hours?” This came out of nowhere.
If she said anything else, I couldn’t hear it. I immediately snatched my hands back & my eyes glazed over. I couldn’t see the same beauty in her eyes anymore. Her long black hair over her shoulders draping onto her black blouse was all I could focus on. I looked down & walked away.
“Come back, let me explain…”
But I did not turn back. I head over to my safe place. Leo doesn’t say a word. He just sat on his bike with one foot resting on the peddle & the other on the ground – as if he is trying to establish a footing. No awkward excitement & no crazy wheel-popping circles. No words. Just sitting there knowing that this moment was whacked.
Karen gets up off the car & walks towards the park, not looking back in my direction at all. She heads right toward the table where Leo’s friend is sitting. Odd she walks right up to him as if she had previously setup this meet…
All I could do was stare at them. They seem to talk for a bit. Then he reaches for her hand. She stretches hers out & they hold hands as they continue to speak face-to-face. The soft light glistens from behind them & now they are sitting in the shade of the Maple tree. Their bodies, as distant shadow figures, move closer together. She sits next to him on the table. He puts his arm around her & they both tilt their heads in a long kiss.
A taunting moment in plain-sight of what was, just recently my happiest hour…
Leo & I just stand there dumbstruck. Not knowing what to say. Not knowing how to react. “You made a fool of me…” I whisper.
Silence dwell for a long spell, while I still stared.
“Leo, what did you say your friend’s name was?” I ask unwittingly, but knowing what the answer might be…
Leo thought for a moment & then realized a connection : “Oh shit! His name is Pablo, too.”