Oh Boy! I thought my “Moment of Synchronicity with SM” was complete when I had my FaceBook.com interaction with RT the other day, but I guess not….
Today I got a call from TR. She wanted to talk so I scheduled a time to talk. I should have know! Every time SM shows up – it’s for TR! Sure others can benefit from my interactions with SM, but ultimately it’s always for TR.
Tonite, TR & I got a chance to talk. She is in a space of disempowerment & was not sure if she “can go on without him.” I listened to her for a bit & then all of a sudden I get this feeling over me!
As she continues I feel her disempowerment and could not continue just listen. I had to say something & SM’s words just rang out! SM’s words were still in my head, so I just said them:
“You do have problems & your circumstances are not great! but guess what? It’s time to let go & learn to live! Your problems are this tiny compared to the magnificence that you are! You are a creation of the great universe! Honor yourself as such. . .
go on with your life & honor your greatness!”
Wow! I never imagined me saying that – so directly – to a grieving widow!
“It is time to allow SM to rest in peace & time for you to live your life. Not as a widow, but as a woman who needs love & wants to share love! You are hanging on tight, afraid to let go… He is here with us because you are afraid to let go.”
“Please, let go. . .”
The silence could be cut with a knife, as the saying goes. But she was still on the line. . . She didn’t hang up on me, so something must have rang true for her!
“So you think I am holding him back?” She asked.
“No, not holding him ‘back’ but hanging on too tight to the sorrow.” I replied. “See, the only times he comes knocking is when you are suffering – so it’s surely possible that your grief & longing for him is that strong.”
“I have a suggestion. . .” I told her.
“How about letting his physicality go, but keep the love you two had as a memory and use that memory as a prop to lift you up on days that you are down.
“When you’re feeling down & think that you can’t make it, them call on that love & the strength of your memories to keep you going. . .
Just one day at a time, for now.”
“OK, I will take that on!” she replied.
Something seemed to change in her voice & a certain sense of peacefulness seems to fill her soul.
We continued talking for over an hour of things she would like to do. And of sharing that she would like to experience, of love she would like to feel again.
SM, it has been a crazy ride interacting with you, but I think this may be the last time I hear from you. It’s amazing how you kept showing up for TR and thank you for the privilege it has been to be your voice. You were a great mentor, a beautiful soul & now shine brightly, like the diamond that you are, out in the universe…
Shine on, you crazy diamond!