Tag Archives: Death

All in Due Time…

Last night & the night before, I had some very strange dreams. These dreams were of women – mostly late middle-age women – all surrendering themselves in different ways. One was physically abused to her death & never challenged her abuse. Another stretched out her neck into the noose to be executed. Any way they all are giving in to their sentence. They were all taken away to their death sentence, but none resisted.

The other thing that was strange is that they were all asking for it – almost demanding to be killed. I don’t mean asking for it – as if they were evil kind-of-way, but it seemed as if they could not bear the conditions of their lives and asked for & welcomed the end.

The other overwhelming feeling I get is that in releasing their soul from their physicality, they are doing an act of compassion. Compassion of what – for who – I do not know. I don’t quite understand this feeling but it’s almost as if their are sacrificing themselves for the betterment of others.

Like I say, I don’t quite understand this one nor am I going to dwell in needing to understand it. I will know when the time comes.

They mostly followed orders and even gave up what they needed, for others to have. This occurred over several dreams, across several days, thru out many lives. I don’t know what they are about or what they are supposed to mean.

But they had several things in common:

  • All the women were late, middle-age – too young to die.
  • All are surrendering & giving in to the inevitable.
  • They never complained nor even cried out in pain.
  • They all welcomed their end – an act of release.
  • They gave themselves for others – a selfless act.

But the most impactful part was that they all felt, to me, to be accepting of the fact that they are here due to their own actions. What they did has caused them to be here going thru what they are going thru. They are paying the price for letting their past be the way it was.

The question I am asking myself now – is this a prelude to another visitation? It seems to have the hallmark signs of one, but who do I know that is sick and ready to go? Who is the person leaving and letting me know that their time has come?

So I thank God for the clarity in seeing the sign and for the gift this is. I even thank him for not giving me the foresight to know who the person is, because if I knew (& this turned out to be someone close to me) then I may be too swept up in emotions to see the message clearly.

Now on to the next step. Waiting to see what the message is. Not to rush it, because the next step is the reveal of who is going to pass.

All in due time…

VN:F [1.9.22_1171]
Rating: 0.0/5 (0 votes cast)

Today is the Day

Today is the day!! TR called me and requested time to speak with me about SM. I am a little nervous now but it is time to “face the music” (as the saying goes) and deliver to her, the message entrusted in me.

TR is a friend with whom I have shared about my ‘abilities’ She knows what it is I do and her first question was: “Did SM communicate with you?”

“Oh-boy” was my first thought, but this is what my dream w/SM said would happen. I shared with her that yes, I have seen him prior to his passing. “Was he wearing a dark shirt w/stripes & a Khaki slacks that night?” was her next question. “Yes, I seem to remember he was…” I replied wondering – that’s an odd question. But accepted that this gave her a sense of peace in knowing the answer.

“I ask only because I have not seem SM in a few weeks and the night of his accident he was on his way to my house to spend the weekend with me…” She paused for a minute & I asked her what she was thinking. “I gave him that clothes and that night, I woke up at 1am because I dreamt he was waving goodbye – wearing that clothes.” As she said these words she broke down crying. “It’s my fault! If he wasn’t on his way to see me he would not have died…”

“Don’t say that TR, don’t you ever believe that! It was his time to go…” I consoled her with a firm tone of voice. “It was the way it needed to be and there is nothing you nor I could have done to have it be different!”

“How can you be sure of that?” She questioned me as she stopped crying.
She asked me to tell her what I saw. As I’m telling her this, she stops me. “No, tell me what else did you see?” So I shared with her the experience I had of SM that night and I shared how I saw him. That his spirit started to leave his body during the middle of the seminar. I saw his spirit ascended and finally leave as he was being acknowledged in front of his peers and how he left complete, that moment, even before the accident.

“He was gone even before the accident?”

“Yes TR,” I assured her “his spirit had to go & all that was left was for his physicality to complete & go to rest.” This seemed to put her at ease a bit.

Well, showtime is here! this is the moment SM spoke about and I could feel her hurting heart yearning for peace. I relayed the message I got from SM:

That because of her love, he can go complete. She fulfills and completes what was not there for him. It was her love for him that allowed him to be fulfilled.”

Having been loved and being ‘love’ was important for him in order to complete. And she gave him that.

This seemed to calm her soul and seemed to put her at ease. We continued to talk for hours and now her tone of voice was peaceful. She needs to grieve, but can now do so knowing that it was his time. Not worrying, that the accident took his life before he was ready.

We will never be ready to go, but our soul knows when our time comes.

VN:F [1.9.22_1171]
Rating: 0.0/5 (0 votes cast)

What is the Message…

This morning I woke up from another vivid dream. I had been dreaming about SM & I was having a conversation with him as to why I saw him the way I did. In the dream SM never seemed to be interested in answering what I wanted to know, it was almost as if he would only explain what his purpose was. He explained that he wants his wife, TR, to know that everything is going to be OK. That his passing is as has to be & that there is nothing wrong.

See SM & TR were newlyweds and at the time of his passing they were only married 6-8 months. Of course loosing her newlywed husband is a tragic experience for TR & I asked SM “How am I going to tell her in the mist of this grief?”

SM replied “don’t worry she will contact you when it’s time!” This kind of gave me a sigh of relief – since I didn’t have to find the right moment to tell her.

When I awoke from the dream I felt a great sense of peace & tranquility. See on the day of the accident I went down to see TR and I was there consoling her for a few hours. I knew I had to tell her how I saw SM, but did not dare. I was there for her & I had to consider what her needs were. She cried a lot and kept saying “what am I going to do without SM?”

Then during the funeral services I was holding back the urge to blurt out what I knew. I felt guilty, all that time, that I knew something & said nothing. The funeral service was gigantic – it was not the appropriate time to tell her this! Hundreds of people were there and hundreds more could not be. See SM was a powerful man & he contributed to so many people around the world. He was bigger then life & bigger then I even imagined.

Condolences poured in from all over the world. There even was a conference call, the night previous, for all the people that knew SM, and could not be at his funeral, to express who SM was for them. Interesting enough there more then 100 persons on the call. People from India, Japan, Australia and even New Zealand. That is how big his presence is in this world.

Now, with this vivid dream, I am at ease knowing that my gut feelings are confirmed – it was not the right time to tell her.

It’s funny, most people (or at least the myths & tv movies) believe that ‘ghosts’ have unfinished business, that is why they hang around. But from my experiences, it is not them – but us – the living who keep them from crossing over. They are complete & it is time for them to go, but we have a hard time letting go. We call them back to this realm.

So anyway, the message that SM wanted TR to know, is that because of her, he can go complete. She fulfills and completes what was not there for him. It was her love for him that allowed him to be fulfilled.

Having been loved and being ‘love’ was important for him in order to complete.

VN:F [1.9.22_1171]
Rating: 0.0/5 (0 votes cast)

Shine On You Crazy Diamond

The common eye sees only the outside of things, and judges by that, but the ‘all seeing eye’ pierces through, and reads the heart and the soul, finding there capacities which the outside didn’t indicate or promise, and which the other kind couldn’t detect.
–Mark Twain

Today I got really sad news. SM, a friend & mentor passed away! He is a powerhouse & an inspiration for me and many other people with whom he had contact. I couldn’t accept this news so I call a friend we have in common and I ask her… “Tell me it isn’t so!”

She replies  “I can’t do that – it is so…”

This news hit me extremely hard & I broke down and just had to cry. I don’t know why it hit me soooo hard. Maybe because I just saw him last night. Or maybe because it confirmed what I already knew last night AND felt powerless about it!!!

I knew he was leaving…

You’ve heard of the expression “The eyes are the windows of the soul..” Well last night, SM’s soul was exiting out thru his windows! His soul would no longer be contained.

The greatness that SM is – can no longer be contained within the smallness of a human package. The genie is free and the light can no longer be contained.

I saw a bright light started emanating from his collar, his eyes and from the top of his head. I knew last night, in the middle of the event, that SM’s soul was departing but i did not want to acknowledge it.

I sat there almost frozen – since I knew what it was. I wanted to jump up as scream SM “you can’t go.. Stay…” but like a freshly cut tree stump, I sat there stoic and numb.

SM shined last night, both literally & figuratively. See he managed the production of the event and was in charge of anything that happened with the facility and equipment. Well both the facility and the equipment acted up and of course SM took care of it. The evening was his and he shined. And I had the great honor to see him shine.

At the start of the event, the lights started to flicker. SM runs out the door to manage it. I ‘m sitting right up front & saw SM walk. As he streaked by I saw his light leaving for the first time. I tried connecting with his eyes but couldn’t see them.

The light was more like a dim glow & some glare on his glasses. The building lights flickered, then shut off and then a few minutes latter they came on. When SM walked back in, he looked normal so I thought nothing of it.

Few minutes later the lights decided to alternate – one row on & nothing else, then another section & nothing else. Again SM leaves the room & again he streaks by in front of me. I try to connect with his eyes. This time the glare was much stronger and it looks like steam spilling out around the rim. When he came back in, he looksnormal again.

What the heck – I’m I imagining this??

The third event is the building’s fire alarm going off. this time it was a strong and beautiful light!

I could see the light emanating from his eyes and reflecting off his glasses. It was so consistent that it blocked me from seeing his eyes.

All I could see is a shine around his eyes, a reflected back image on the lens and a halo around his head. Wow! this is beautiful

I’ve never experienced a soul leave at the moment it is going. I’ve always imagined that as  an awful experience. I’ve had death as a scary devastating occurrance.  After all we are lead to believe that death is the END – there is nothing there on the other side. The grand finale, the last curtain call and the end of who we are….

But my friends, I beg to differ & this experience confirms it for me. If you ask for evidence – I have none. You could call it a hallucination or a figment of my imagination.

But in my heart I know I got to experience the essence of who we are and how it is compressed and compacted down into this little 5′-9″ bottle I call my body. When I saw SM leaving, it was as if the genie was released from it’s bottle to be free and be the greatness that this soul can be.

Finally, at the end of the evening SM & his crew are called to the front to be acknowledged and in that moment, before he stood up, the halo around his head, pulled off towards the ceiling.

The glow left him!

The genie is now free to expand and stretch it wings. Fly & be free!

He was now complete as he was being acknowledged. He was free to go and left completely fulfilled.

OMG! my words are dismal at explaining the magnitude of what I was experiencing!

Within hours his body completed it’s purpose and at 10:15pm, SM was no longer on this earth. That evening SM’s life was completed in a fatal car accident. He went on to shine on out in the universe…

He is an amazing powerhouse, a beautiful soul shining and giving love to nude celebrities everyone he met.

Shine on you crazy diamond…

VN:F [1.9.22_1171]
Rating: 5.0/5 (1 vote cast)

Mystic Journey (Cont.)

So finally crossing this soggy bog, I am now free to find my home in the country.

Waiting there for me is my family.

The days pass and finally I reach my home. As I approach the house, I feel this energy field that is different that anything I’ve ever experienced before.

The background glows bright and the air is thick with a mist. The house glows as well and almost seems to be floating. This gives me a very ethereal feeling.

I find myself standing outside and unable to enter. Almost as if I’m standing at the window between this world and the other. She stands at the window and waits for me to approach. The space between us is as intangible as air yet so real that I can almost reach over that threshold and hold her hand. But this I will never do.

We talk for a while and she completes the conversation by saying “You must go! This time and space is no longer your home. It can no longer be yours. Return to your new home.”

I feel a warm, internal heat filling my body and my feet no longer touch the ground. She smiles at me and I feel a sense of joy and peace flowing from her. Her peace fills my soul and I realize that she is right. I am no longer of that time and space.

“Valhalla… I am coming.”


This dream comes full circle. In the First Part I do not accept the fact that I am at Valhalla. In the second part, I try to escape the inevitable outcome and run thru the clearing back across the River Styx crossing over the valley.

Now in the third part, I find her. She enlightens me of where I am and that I have crossed an ethereal plane thru which I cannot return. Her peace shows me that it is OK to return to my place as one of the chosen ones at Valhalla.

How does this relate to my present day reality? First I love mythology & Led Zeppelin therefore that symbolism. Well I have been living in the past. I have been mourning for over 8 years and that has kept me from continuing on my path. Now it is time to complete that. I have allowed the loss of my mother, my father-in-law, my mother-in-law, Pedro, Jennifer, Baby Grace and several others to eat away at who I am. I have allowed parts of me to die with them. I have lost vitality, passion for life and have dwelled in sadness for too long. Lamenting the past will not let me move forward.

Today the light at the clearing is filling me with peace. Today I am committed to living a life that is full of Passion, Love and most of all Joyfulness. This is what I choose to live this day forward.

VN:F [1.9.22_1171]
Rating: 0.0/5 (0 votes cast)