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Scent of a Woman

It is midnight as I return home.
asleep, I will find her again.
Undressing in the dark, I feel my way
towards the foot of the bed.

Head into the bath readying for bed
Brush my teeth and check the stubble.
As usual, I stare into the mirror to see
the effects of the day.
Today’s toils were not so bad after all.

I turn off the bath lights and
walk into the darkness of the room.
I prop up one pillow & set the other
ready to hug it goodnight.

I pull the sheets over my head
and kiss my wife good night.
As I lean forward I smell the
sweet scent of her skin.
And remembered why I love her.

I wish to tell her so this moment.
But alas, it must wait for the dawn.
As tomorrow will be another day.

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Knowing What My Wife Responds to

I finally got it thru my thick skull learned what it is that my wife likes and needs when it comes to Love. I learned that all she wants is to be told that she is loved.

That’s it!!! I don’t know why this works. She already knows that I love her, so why do I have to repeat it over & over again! say it. But ‘saying’ the actual words is what made all the difference for her.

Once I started telling her how much I love her, her reactions to me became different. The way that I discovered this secret is that while cleaning the house, I ran into a workbook she had from a seminar called The Five Love Language. See one day a long while back she dragged me out invited me to seminar. In this seminar I fell asleep learned that each of us have a language we use to express, but more importantly receive love. I have forgotten about it until now.

Here is an excerpt from the Five Love Languages website:

1. Words of Affirmation : Mark Twain once said “I can live for two months on a good compliment.” More»

2. Quality Time : Quality time is more than mere proximity. It’s about focusing all your energy on your mate. More»

3. Receiving Gifts : Some mates respond well to visual symbols of love. More»

4. Acts of Service Sometimes simple chores around the house can be an undeniable expression of love. More»

5. Physical Touch : Many mates feel the most loved when they receive physical contact from their partner. More»

The Five Love Languages by Dr Gary Chapman.

The Five love Languages are how we express love for one another. We may express love using all five, but only two or three actually make us FEEL loved. We need to be loved and are inclined to respond to those specific languages. So to learn what it is that my wife is receptive to is the key to understanding her. If I speak her language, she can actually respond to me.

See in the past I used to caress her. Hold her hand, put my arm on her shoulder, etc. People used to comment on how ‘touchy’ we were. When I’m standing next to her, I put my hand in the small of her back. When were sleeping I would cuddle with her. This did not make a difference. There were times that she would even complain that my arm is “too heavy” and ask me to back off. So the “Physical Touch’ language was not what she wanted.

I even tried putting aside time, in the evenings, to spend with her. I would sit next to her and cringe thru watch her “novelas” (Spanish soaps). This did nothing. She would fall asleep and leave me to watch the novelas alone.

I would bring flowers home for her & she would say “that’s nice” and a lot of times it actually made a difference for her. But it really did not hit the spot. Sometimes she would just pickup where the argument left off.

I even reverted to doing the chores around the house. This made matters worse. The way she took this to mean was that I did not think she was doing a ‘good enough’ job. Psycho Crazy I know, but “Acts of Service” were definitely not the language that she needed.

I realized that my actions did not make a difference because these were all things that I valued as a way to express love. See I need physical affection to feel loved, so I thought that would be what she needs. I don’t need my wife telling me that she loves me. This is bizarre! So why would I do that.

So the reason for doing it is simple! It is what she needs and craves. So in order to ‘communicate’ with her and make her feel loved, I need to speak her language. This may not be easy because as Kerry at His Help Meet puts it – this “does not come naturally to me.” I need to make a conscious effort in order to communicate this way.

But it is definitely worth the effort in order to keep our relationship fulfilling for the both of us.

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Her Bad Mother’s Basement: No Thanks For Being A Friend

Today I have been avoiding a friend of mine. He’s called several times and I just did not want to talk with him. I’ve known him for more then 3 years & today I am feeling like those years were just a waste.

I’m sitting here reading blogs and came across Her Bad Mother’s Basement post No Thanks For Being A Friend and it ran me over like a rush hour express train!

I am so pissed off because I feel used by him. He promises big things and never comes through; Always tells me how he has had a major breakthru and that “he is not the same person” anymore, but within days he is back to his old ways. One moment he is powerful & the next he just turns into a disempowering soul & I allow him to disempower me. He is very insecure & vulnerable, but comes across as strong & transformed.

I feel bad for him, since life is not working for him. Work, relationships, finances, even commitments he’s made to people are collapsing around him. People are turning their backs on him & kicking him out of their homes, groups & lives. I feel that I am enabling him and feeding his need to be heard – all from the fear that he will see me as just another person who walks away. He is needy & I’m falling into his trap of “poor me, I am being abandoned.”

In HerBadMother’s post she states “I’m mad at myself for letting you off easy” & that is exactly what I’m feeling. I’m really mad at myself, not him, for not having the courage to put stop this. But the only way I see to stop his crap is to walk away. He does not want to see how he uses people and leaves them worn out.

So all I’m doing is making him wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong! And that does not do anything for me or him. This is not empowering! So I am going to stop my rant (stepping down from soapbox now!) & actually see what is really bothering me.

What am I Doing: – complaining, being upset, making him wrong, avoiding him, feeling used, not being responsible for expressing my feelings.
What Do I Have: – wasted time, upset, a friendship that is not fulfilling, lost communication, expectations of how he should respond & do.
Who am I Being that I allow this to continue: – coward, fearful, not a true friend.

So I can definitely see that there is nothing I can do to change him. The only person I can do anything about is me. What can I put in (that is missing for me) to be OK happy & satisfied with our friendship the way it is – and the way it isn’t.

So what is missing in who I’m being is : – being empowering for myself! I am taking on being courageous, compassionate and an undaunting stand for him.

This gives me power to stand for myself and for him, but most importantly – it gives me power to not let things continue the way they are & to create something new for both of us.

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You Got Peanut Butter on My Phone!

OK today is a shitty! no a sucky! not a great day! Have you ever had one of those days where nothing you do seems to go right! I just wanted to go to bed by midday.

So I went upstairs and started to prepare lunch before I take a nap. My 10 yr old son noticed I was pissed so he was helping by make my favorite sandwich – Peanut Butter & Jelly. I don’t know what it is about a PB&J; sandwich, but it usually puts a smile on my face…

Well, today it did just that… but in quite a different way!

My cell phone rings & I’m fumbling to answer it before my client is sent to VM – but Damm!!! – they make these cell phones so tiny – anyone could easily drop one.

And that is just what happened. I am holding the phone with my cheek against my shoulder – and of course I had to be nosey. I leaned forward to see him make my sandwich and my tiny, shiny, favorite Blackberry Pearl (can you hear my cries) just slides, as if greased with butter, right out of my shoulder.

Oh shit! doggy doo (my son’s listening – I can’t contribute to the corruption of a minor!). My first thought is “don’t fall on the PB! – no not face down at least!!!” As I am thinking those words, I see my black Pearl slide (matrix-like) down my favorite red, polyester Hawaiian shit; roll off my outstreched arm (hey in the movies they catch it in mid air, why not me!); and does a flip – you know like the end of a slide dropping into the pool.

As I am thinking “- no not face down at least!!!” that is exactly what the phone decides to do – a belly flop into the PB.

My son turns and faces me with a look of suprise & fun and says “Hey you got phone in my peanut butter!” I immediately start laughing and that commercial runs thru my head. I reply. “Hey you got peanut butter on my phone!”

I try to snatch it off the PB (Hey, the 5 second rule may apply – maybe it won’t stick), but as I turn it over I see the splatter of PB on the buttons. We both start laughing and the burden and the blues of this day just washed away.

Needless to say, throughout the day, everytime I answer the phone I get the perfume of PB and it makes me smile.

Have a great day and don’t let life get you down. Live and enjoy each day…

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Blog the Recession

Came across Motherhood Uncensored’s blog & she has this great idea for all bloggers to help one another.

Help some bloggers by increasing pageview, contributing to their ad revenue. But an even simpler idea: Getting to know one another, even commenting on each other’s posts and helping each other out.

She calls it “Blog the Recession Month.”

Her idea is nice & the premise is simple:

If you read blogs, then for the month of August, make the “pledge” to click through from your feed reader. No obligation to leave a hilarious comment or send a long stalkerish email (although both, within reason, are always lovely). Just click through to the blog (not on ads unless you are so led) and if you’re feeling generous, click around to their older posts.

Just those extra page views can make a big difference for bloggers who could really use the help…

Pageviews, ad revenue but most important, comments. Comments are always nice to get. It helps me feel like someone is actually visiting & I’m not “sitting here blogging at myself.”

I love the idea because it’s fun, creates a community with like interests, and most of all allows me to feel like I am contributing something to you.

Welcome & Thanks for coming by…

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